|Me and Mom on|
my wedding day
How is that possible?
Obviously this is my wedding day. I was so young. Too young to get married.
Mom was 62 when she died. She was so young to be over taken by cancer. Too young to die.
Soon after this picture was taken I yelled at my mom to quit taking so many stupid pictures. It hurt her feelings and she started to cry.
I really haven't cried much since I got the call she was gone. Haven't felt like doing much of anything actually.
On my wedding day my mom made me promise I would finish college. Of course I graduated and she was there to watch me get my diploma.
The night before we took mom to in-patient hospice, she made me promise I'd finish my Yoga Therapy certifications. I told her I'd finish, but honestly not with as much enthusiasm as I had with my earlier promise.
Without mom here who will watch my kids as I travel for my trainings? Who will help me financially when I come up a little short for the next levels tuition? Who will tell me to quit whining and start studying when I tell her I just don't have the brain power anymore for advanced anatomy?
I found out today that mom also made my sister promise to go back to school. My sister has already cut back her hours at work and is looking at beginning courses soon.
Both my sister and I are grown women with families of our own now. Yet we're still trying to make mom proud of us.
Why can't I find any more pictures of me with my mom?