In my next life I want to be reincarnated as a dolphin.
I have this theory that as we go through life we have lessons to learn, and as we progress and complete the lessons, we return to earth each time a little more evolved. Until eventually we are reincarnated as a dolphin.
Why a dolphin? Dolphins are amazingly smart, beautiful to watch as they glide through the water and just plain cool.
I think today I may have earned part of a dorsal fin.
I had a conversation with someone today that would have in the past caused me to get upset and defensive. I admit I have a strong personality, and this person also has a strong personality. Unfortunately, our personalities have a way of combating each other rather than working together.
Today's issue was nothing earth shattering. I presented an idea, and for reasons I don't agree with, she vetoed it. In the past my ego would have roared up and I would have defended my position, argued my point and taken it personally.
That didn't happen today. I made my point, she made hers and I accepted it. I don't agree with it. But I accept it and don't feel the need to challenge it.
And I'm ok with that. After all, this is only temporary.
It's a temporary conversation. A temporary job. A temporary time and place. A temporary life.
At one point during the exchange I remember thinking I feel nothing inside. No anger, no resentment, no pain. Just contentment.
In yoga, contentment is the second niyama. The Sanskrit word is santosa. Santosa means seeing things as they are, without expectation. It's a way of finding peace with whatever stage of growth or circumstance you are in.
Santosa doesn't mean giving up or allowing myself to be treated badly. It just means I find a way to be the best person I can be, no matter what situation I find myself in.
I'm here in this job, this place, this life for now. But someday, I hope to be jumping freely through the waves.