You're so mean, when you talk, about yourself you were wrong.
Change the voices, in your head, make them like you instead.
-- Pink F'ing Perfect
What happens when you get what you've wanted for so long? Do you jump for joy and shout it from the roof tops? Or do you get paralyzed with fear and question your worthiness?
I get quiet and scared and make mental lists of why it won't work out anyway.
Why do I do that?
The voices inside my head tell me I'm not good enough. And I believe them.
At about midnight last night my iPhone beeped with an email that had great news. My first thought was oh no.
Why do I do that?
Today I got on my yoga mat and had a good practice. I moved, I breathed, I was confident.
Then somebody asked me what my good news was and I said oh it's no big deal. I played small.
Why do I do that?
Some days when I'm having trouble settling into meditation, I'll repeat the So Hum mantra. So Hum: I am that. Inhale So, exhale Hum.
I am that. I am worthy. I am loved. I am valuable. I am confident. I am secure.
I am that. So Hum.
I deserve this opportunity. I've studied, trained and worked for it. I am ready. I accept it. I am.
