After last weeks mini-breakdown over socks on the living room floor I decided enough - I physically, mentally and emotionally can't keep up this schedule. Well actually I could keep up the pace but I can't afford the staff I'd need to hire to do it!
So, like my dear friend Jilda at Transformation Information says, I put on my big girl panties and began paring down my schedule. I must say, it was actually nice to make dinner a couple nights this past week, watch the kids soccer game and not feel beat up by the time the day is over.
But, as is my pattern, I began to doubt my decision to slow down. My mind became clouded with "what if..." and "how will I pay for..." and "will I ever be able to...." type thoughts.
Then today, totally unexpectedly, someone handed me a candid picture they had snapped of me and kid #5. I barely remember this picture being taken. I had just finished telling the party host we couldn't stay for the whole party because we had three other parties to get to that day. I heard someone call my name, I turned around, a flash went off, and I went right back to my rush, rush attitude.
I'm framing this picture and hanging it somewhere I'll see it everyday. It will be my reminder that yes, this is part of the reason why I work so hard. But it's also a bigger part of the reason I need to slow down.
Work in a way that does not create more stress.
-- Judith Hanson Lasater